Thursday, March 23, 2006
Currently Listening: With Abandon

My Story
This is my story right now.
I was blessed to go to Boston last June with the CDS to serve at King of Grace Church. I knew that it would be a fun time and a cool experience. But I had no idea what all God had planned for me while I was there...
While I was there, God openned my eyes to a whole new perspective, a whole new perspective of everything. He changed my whole life around. I wanted more than just a comfortable life.
While I was there, I was able to live in a way that I never had before. Even though it was a lot of fun, the trip was also a lot of work. I was basically forced to be calling out to God and praying throughout the day. The fellowship was great too. Steve and Alex led out in praying for eachother and encouraging eachother. WE were able to confess to eachother openly where we were struggling. The guys were humble enough to be open, which helped me to as well.
While we were there, one of the members of the church gave us all CD's with messages by John Piper on them. I didn't listen to them until about a month after I was home. But the two messages struck something in my heart. They were both from a series called "Desiring God". The first one I listened to was called "Boasting Only in the Cross of Christ". The second one was called "Doing Missions when Dying is Gain". These two messages hit me like no other message had. God gave me a glimpse of what could be. On one of the messages, John Piper pleads to the young people to not waste your life. He describes a couple who retires early, moves to Punta Gorda, Florida, and spends there time on their large yaught, playing softball, and collecting shells. He went on to explain that, although the American mentality that we are sold sees this as great, in the light of eternity, it is nothing. What will they say to God? "Look at my boat" or "I have a cool shell collection"? He describes this as a tragedy. He then described two single women, serving God in a third world country, who died in a car accident while trqaveling between villages. Neither had ever been married, both were nearly 80. "This", Mr. Piper said,"Is not a tragedy."
Mr. Piper ssaid that to make a difference in this world, you don't have to know a lot of things. You just have to know a few things, and be willing to die for them. I ask myself am I ready to die for them? Wouldn't that be a great end?
Then I met Keith Green. I was given a biography of him by my parents. I didn't read it right away, but when I did, I was blown away. This was a man, not perfect, but determined to please God. Everything he did, he tried to do for God's glory. He even gave away his music. His music was completely given over to God, which is evident to anyone who listens to his songs. He opened up his home to anyone who needed a place to stay. He had to buy more houses, and eventually move to a ranch, to have the room for all the people who came. Basically, he was a man who had completely given his life to God. God was his life, his master, his everything.
AS I read about this man, I was challenged to live for God, to hold nothing back, to give him everything.
After all of this, myt focus had completely changed. I saw life differentely. I wanted to live completely for God. I wanted Him to have my whole life.
So then what happened? I'm not sure. I have this desire, but I found that it's harder to live it out. I see other people, and the way that they seem to be living, and it doesn't seem right. Even other Christians. And I 'm not talking about all Christians, and not even most Christians, but many Christians in America do not give God their all. They are just satisfied to not go to Hell. They don't care if what they do on earth matters in eternity. I want my life to matter. I want to be the grain that gives back one-hundred fold, not 30 or 60. I want all that God has for me.
But then there's the part of me that just wants to be comfortable, to be entertained, who wants it easy. I struggle to control this part. I know that I need God's help here.
anyways, more later, gtg

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